why is it that ur life is better than mine?

2008-07-20T05:51:00.000-07:00

I haven't posted in a long long time.. i've been basically going to other ppl's blogs and observing:D hahahaha. So much that i fogot bout my own blog.... I can't really remember what happened since teh last time i posted.. excep that i suddenly got this crazy for japanese and This boy band called KAT TUN. They are really good. their members are, Kazuya kamenashi, Ueda tatsuya, Tanaka koki, Taguchi Junnosuke, Yuichi nakamaru and Jin akanishi. I think That kazuya kamenashi is da best. He has this little duchshund thats just ADORABLE! my next dog is sooo going to be a duchshund:D. i'm trying to find their cds now.. thats my main reason for trying to go to japan end of this year:D... Yuichi is a beatboxer... really really cool.... And tanaka koki is a rapper... COOL! KAKOI!... is that how you spell it?.. ok.. nvm.. ignore.. anyways.. EH.... They sing well.. dance well.. and act well.. TO ME............... They ahve their own tv show.. If i not wrong every wed 12mid.... I have no freaking idea;D... OH! THIS ONE MUST HEAR! JUNNOSUKE IS A LEFT HANDER!!! LEFT HANDER!!! JUST LIKE ME!!! AND ASHIVINI@@@@ AND FELICIa!!!! AND ALL THE LEFTIES IN THE WORLD! BE PROUD OF THAT! HE ROCKS TOO!!! EVEN IF KAZUYA ROCKS MORE!!!

KAzuya made alot of mistakes in many of his concerts. Theres one where he fell of the stage.. but he went back on at the next song limping.. damn dan sweet.. there was one also where he was at this tv show and he was singing.. and he forgot his lyrics... damn hilarious.. the most hilarious vid bout him though.. was a short clip of him on a roller coaster.. he kept screaming YAMAII!!.. or something liddat.. then he was screaming and screamning. DAMN hilarious...

Akanishi has this funny thing where he will scream like a girl if you touch his collarbone.. if i ever have a chance, i will definitely try touching his collar bone... HAHAHAHAH!

2008-06-14T19:13:00.000-07:00

hm.. i suddenly got this crazy for wu zun and chen yi ru. They're my favourites... after i watched romantic princess ( i ran out of anime.. so i watch drama instead lo:P). i love them the most!!! muahahahah.. i just had to post this.. so yea... buaibuai:D

2008-06-11T04:45:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was wan's birthday:D. Wen came to my house first and we went to wan's house.. i put down some stuff... then we left to meet jean at kallang mrt station. There were only four of us. many many MANY ppl went abroad and couldn't come. haiz. anyways, we went to the leisure park... ice skate until 12.45pm. The skating ring was rather empty.. i admit. there were two very pretty ang mohs having lessons and skating round the place. They were GREAT! they could do all those fantastic tricks. Half the time wan was scolding me for staring at them non stop:D.. hehe... sorri sorri! Haiz.. i wish i could skate like that. i'm thinking of taking skating lessons. anyone care to join me?

Then we went for lunch at pastamania. Wen and I shared a 7 inch pizza.. small.. i know.. but we were on a diet. *psst! wenyi has great figure. dono why she needs a dieet. I nid one for sure. But wen? nah.. she;s got great hourglass:D:D* haha.

After lunch, we went off to buy our movie tickets... KUNGFU PANDA! haha. we were a little early so we went off to the arcade first. since we were all short of money... we dug out 2bucks each to play some games.. we just happened to play all the games in which we sucked at.. hahahahahah..

then we went to buy our snacks... then went for the movie. it was great great great. i loved the movie... i love viper and the tigress:D. they're my favs. hahahaha... next to jean was some guy that wan apparently knew from a debate workshop in some time in the past. haha. Apparently they were enemies. hahahahahaha... ah well...

After the movie we hanged out for like... 20 mins? somewhere around there.. then jean stayed to wait for her mother to fetch her and the rest of us went to the kallang station. haha. wen went off at the bedok station while wan and i went off at the simei one. haha. at the beginning of the train ride.. it was crampy.. and i was laughin alot.. hahaha... wan and wen thought i was crazy.. i think? :P

wan and i had a movie marathon.... hehe.. flushed away, jurassic park one and two. i couldn't last... hehe... i slept at like...1? and she slept at 3 plus i think. then the next morning she woke up at like... 10 +++.. hahaha...

I had a fun time. I really wish we could do something like this again:D. mayb on my birthday:D.. i wonder.. hahahahahah. ah well. i posted alot already. no one really reads this blog anyways... ah well.. tata.

2008-06-06T07:09:00.000-07:00

Haiz. I miss maple alot. I mean like. i was checking my total ranking in maple. and in like. 1 hour, my ranking went from 428430 to 428516. HOW BAD IS THAT> i miss maple so much. specially now is when its their like......... anniversary thingies. where they have more events and activities. And you know, i have this friend. ONE WEKK AGO, my fren was like........ 4 lvls lower than me...and now.. he's like...... 3 lvls higher than me. I have another fwen, who gained like...... 10 lvls since last week? my gosh. ITs murderous. When will i get maple back?

Oh. And storm's back at the moment:D my dear dear storm. hahahah. Wanna say hi?> just tell me:D

2008-06-02T23:35:00.000-07:00

LOL! my last post was like.. ages ago. Well, this time its not cos i m lazy. I have a good reason to not be online for a long time. And the next post after this is also probably going to be in a long long long time. Well. To start updating everyone before i start on why i can't go online. ....

Lets see.... my report card.. I suppose i improved alot since last year:D getting the hang of the secondary school exams already. Last year, i had a lvl position of bout... 126. and this year, i have a lvl position of... 56:D thats like a bloody improvement to me. HAHAHA! my subjects... well.. i think i could have done better... hehe.. here are my scores!

english - B4
Chinese - C6
Math - A2
Science - B4
Geog - B4
History - B4
Lit - C5
DNT - B3
Home ed - A2
Music - A
Dance - B
Drama - A

HAHA. its not so good right?. i know. hahahaha.
But i'm still happy.

NEXT TOPIC@ church camp... That.. i don't wanna talk bout it. too...........>.<

NEXT TOPIC@ Why i can't use the com much.
Well to start, it all started with ____ trying to make me pick up a moth. A MOTH! its a freaky brown thing that flies if you didn't know. I hate moths. So i said no. ____ said he didn't care. I said no. He got pissed. He said i have to pick up the moth and sweep the floor before i left for my VCH performance. I said no. Then ____ went off to my mum to say dunno what i was incorrigable and immature or something liddat> I wasn't listening. HAHA. STUPID! you think i will listen to such stuff.. He started nagging at me bout some stuff i wasnt listening also. then i ignored. Then i wanted to leave that time, he stood at the door and said he won't let me out of the house until i picked up the moth. I told him that the house had two exits and i could just easily go out through the other exit. He said i could try. So i said okay but din move cos i was wearing my shoes. Then he said that its ok, he will let me out of the house but he will do other things to get back at me. I said ok. Then i left. Then he went to cancel my acc in the laptop lo. I have no idea if he shifted the pics from my mum's' cam to his acc or my mum's. If he did not, He's dead. Cos my mum's camera don't have all the pics. I deleted some. Then if he loses it, my mum will kill him:D i hope she does. He's such a ********************. So now i can't use the com lo. Now i only using for a hwile cos i need to write a 800 word essay for jo ann. HAHAHAHAHAH! ah well. I write alot le. my hand is tired:D I shall post the next time i can use the laptop:D BUAIBUAI

2008-05-30T06:28:00.001-07:00

my gosh. the last time i posted was ages ago.. hahaha... Hm.. lots of things have happened.. to start, my mum has come back from her operation:D and she's doing very very wel... hahahaha... there was also church camp. NOW tthat suckd. Lots of friendship problems because of that. Haiz.. i'm not going to say cos i don't want to insult any of my friends:D. But those who noe. PLs. I don't like these things to happen. If you want to backstab me, don't lie to me. just backstab me. Don't have to tell other people how much you hate me but in front of me say tht you love me as a friend. You keep intruding into my life. I don't complain. but sometimes you go overboard... ah well.. hope you think bout it..

2008-05-20T05:27:00.000-07:00

today, wan came back to school. aparently she came back last night... ad all.. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH

2008-05-17T19:27:00.001-07:00

I'm suddenly stuck to the anime D gray man. Its really really nice. Its sweet and funny. hahahahaha. Unresistable! everyone should watch!!!

These few days i've been doing ntg except computer computer. I don't even have maple.... crazy right? ahahaha....

I think we're having a guitar competition on the 28th may... and the ensembe hasn't even learnt the songs perfectly.......... I don't even know how we're going to get first place..... but at least i have another guitar. Not exactly new... but...... passed down from rachel thong:D.... its really nice.... its loud.. we had to bring it home to change the strings though. Its was damn damn damn heavy la. i had to change hands every minute or so... haha... my uncle managed to help me to change the strings:D. so i wasn't in much trouble.. but i'm still not sure if the guitar is going to be mine temporarily... i hope so though.. i love it already:D..... ah well....

2008-05-16T08:50:00.000-07:00

I really hate my life.
I don't have any talent.
I'm hated by all.
I suffer without someone who loves me always.
I consider suicide.
But i'm scared.
I want friends.
I get some..
But they leave me.
When i get to trust them..
Why is my life like that?

2008-05-14T07:54:00.000-07:00

Hm...
Tmr mornin my mum is going for her operation...
I have no freakin idea wht exactly is it for...
But yeeah....
I hope she will be okay..
She'll probably be resting for a month....
I'm so going to die...
everyone please pray pray pray for her...
we shall all pray that she'll be healthy....
loves:D

2008-05-12T04:07:00.000-07:00

haha. today i went to school when all e other classes did not have to.... stupid right? and for what you ask, for a stupid stupid stupid video editing thingy. Something bout mr lee or mr ng.. damn stupid la. I just used the extra computer to check my horses on virtual horse ranch... haha... it lasted like for 6 hours? about thr.. then after that nicole tan came over:D haah.. we went swimming, something i haven't done in ages. I so miss swimming. It lets you clear your thoughts. HAHAHHAHAHAHAH!. ok. my dad coming over soon le.. i think:P.. Post next time:D

2008-05-08T07:23:00.001-07:00

OMG! finally MYE over!!!!!!!!!!! yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! last papr was geog.. It was ok.. i studied enough for me to be able to answer the questions.... but i did not manage to finish the last question:'(.. but its only three marks.. so ok ba:D Today i finally talked to ashvini.. but its was just a hi and a bye... But its still talking:D i'm happy.

But... mother's day is on sunday. I already gave my mum her present. But i'm sure even though she seems very happy. She's hurting inside. I think its because of my dad and my grandmother. My grandmother keeps scolding my mum and saying insulting things. And my mum cries. My grandmother doesn't care bout my mum at all. And my mum is her eldest daughter. She favouritises her other children and keeps scolding and blaming my mum. My dad also. I called him to ask if he was coming. He said he was overseas. That is a huge hint already saying that he is with his other family. Celebrating with them. He also told my mum that. How do you think my mum feels? She loves him alot. She did not sue him or anything when he took 20k from her. my dad is so eager to divorce my mum.. my mum, in front of my aunties and her friends, she acts as if its nothing and she's not divorcing cos it'll be at my dad's advantage. But personally, i think its cos she loves him and doesn't want to let go. ITs the same for me. I don't want him to leave me forever and forget bout him. Everytime i think bout him. I just can't bear the thought of him leaving me forever. I say i hate him. I say he's just a walking bank to me. He's not. I love him. I miss him. I want him back. I want to have the happy times with him again. The days where we walked coco together. The days we celebrated coco's birth together. The days where he loved me. The days where we were a family. But thats impossible. He doesn't love me. I'm not his blood. I'm not a guy. I'm not smart to him. I'm not pretty. I'm stupid. I'm not perfect for him. But even if i know all that. Even if i know he was the one that caused me to lose buddy. Even if i know that he had an affair with my ex maid. Even if i know that he will never come back. I will always love him. I will never stop hoping for the day he comes back.

2008-05-06T04:40:00.000-07:00

Haiya.. Today was lit paper... and chinese oral too:D.... got it was so bad...... My lit paper hor.. i barely even knew what to write O.o... i din even have time to sleep! SHOCKING! haha... My chinese oral was damn damn funny larh... at first... my reading was like.. HORRENDOUS! haha.. i barely even knew what to say half the time:). conversation was worse... She was like..in chinese of course./. " nowadays got alot of children get into accident at the escalator there. what do you think about it?". I was like.. " wo xiang ta men hen playful. Shou hen ai luan nong dong xi. Ke shi ta men de fu mu ye shi cuo. ta men mei you teach properly ta men the haizi." it was like in half english half chinese.. it went on and on for my whole conversation. She said something bout how i should listen more in class.. It was so so so so disastrous la:D haha.. if i pass it'll be a miracle.. Tmr is science paper! second last paper! JY EVERYBODY!

2008-05-03T07:51:00.000-07:00

I know i'm a slow person.
I take a long long long time to notice who are my friends and who are not.
For ages and ages i thought N_____ was my best friend.
But now i'm in the same class as her,
I changed my mind.
i thought that i couldn't trust A______
But i was wrong.
Although i'm not close to her or anything...
I think she is a good good friend.
If she ever hates me,
I will still love her as a friend:D
she doesn't tell me her problems or anything...
but i do:D
I hope one day she'll trust me enough to tell me her problems..
i don't want ppl around me to suffer.
Cos i know that my life is rather good...
Compared to some of my friends...

2008-05-02T19:39:00.000-07:00

Since i wanted to say this fro quite a while now:D...
I lurv maple so much and i managed to like.. lvl up to lvl 37 sincei started like.. two months ago:D
To some people it may be slow.
But its really really fast for me:).
I love maple so much now:D hehe...
ah well... i'll write more after i change the blog skin:D

2008-05-02T19:36:00.000-07:00

This is my new blog from now onwards. i can't seem to enter my other blog acc. haiz...